it’s not about sex
it’s about making love
something that i’ve never had in my hole life
something that seemed stupid and unreal
something i wanted so bad but couldn’t figure out what exactly

love
this is what i don’t know shit about
this is what i did not believe in
this is what i hated
this is what i didn’t understand (still)

this is what i really scared of
to be loved and give love at the same time because it seems impossible

it seems like it could be lie

but here i am
still so eager to have it in my life but run away every time it comes to me
afraid of the fact that i just don't know how to… love